[I AM SO BAD WITH SUSPENSE!!1 clenching his fists, one at his side and one bunched at the front of his shirt as he tries not to jitter too much]

I--I'm scared of that feeling of being too close to the Shadow world! When it's like the air turned into water and I'm breathing in darkness no matter what I do--b-because I know what comes after that is waking up to things I had no control over--that I couldn't stop myself from hurting my friends even if I wanted to--