Toskikov (DEFUNCT)
T Denial, Consumption, Poison | ❧ Played by AJ | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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Appearance: T appears as a human woman who would not look out of place at a brothel-slash-sushi shop. She's slender, not very tall, and the opposite of well-endowed but holds herself like a lady who knows what she wants and also what she's willing to give. She has long black hair (often worn up) and always wears red lipstick and eyeshadow. She always keeps her neck covered either by a high collar or a scarf and always wears sleeves -- often her clothing is red. It's pretty rare that she stands straight up, often she will slouch or lean or drape. There is a certain laziness to her gesture, but also a coil of power. Both her wrists and neck are scarred (in the rare event that you might see them) and there is a line of scars shaped like snake scales that goes from behind her right ear down her spine. No matter how much she eats she remains itty bitty in proportion. She can also unhinge her jaw. It's kind of terrifying. Characteristics: Obsessive, excitable, childish, greedy, compulsive, a great big fibber, manipulative, annoying, morbid, mercurial, fanciful Likes: Tragedy, stagnation, obsession, compulsion, extremely bright colors, bitter or sour foods, sestinas, unhealthy relationships, corrupt piousness, polite fiction, Freudian concepts, feasts, conversion Dislikes: Acceptance, actualization, sweets, limericks, monogamy, families where all the members are living, conditioning, education, altruism, true faith, monochrome, starvation, diets | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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Shrine: A salt lick with pretty pink salt. Ritual: LICK THE SALT LICK. | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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❧ Will Take | ❧ Will Give | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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On Memory... T also has the ability to do what she calls "help" with memories. More accurately she can bury a memory, create a false memory or attach a "false feeling" to a memory you have. So, if you want to forget your asshole father? She can do that for you. If you want to bridge the gap between two memories she can fabricate a memory that fills in the gaps, so to speak. Or if you just wanted to have a fun childhood memory even if you didn't have a fun childhood, I guess. And she can make things that you remember as being awful be remembered as AWESOME EXPERIENCES :D :D :D or the other way around. Basically if it's altering or falsifying a remembered person/event/feeling she can help you out there! | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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Expectations and Powers of Vipers | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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Eh?
Ah...
What do you want to know?
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When I first saw him I thought he was mine, and I was very happy until I realized what being here meant. Then I realized he was... different. Like if my Ikki-kun went through the worst kind of Hell for him. I didn't want to think of any version of him going through that so I refused to accept that he was 'Ikki'.
He was mad, and I tried to apologize the next day... He just got even more upset with me. It... hurt. I kept trying to make things better but instead kept making things worse.
And he kept responding in ways that my Ikki never would... He rejected me and my apologies. He wouldn't explain why he was mad at me. He makes me feel like I'm a disappointment. I'm not the 'other' me, so I am pathetic. I'm not the person 'he' remembers. I'm not the 'Akito' that anyone remembers.
He makes me feel like I'm not me. Like I'm not allowed to be an Akito, or someone worth caring about. At home, mine would always make me feel the opposite...
The one that's here... It hurts when I see him. It makes me sad and also angry. If he doesn't like me for me, then around him I'll always be someone else. I'll be bitter and angry, and... I'll be strong instead of weak and pathetic, so then maybe he'll think better of me. But that also just makes things worse.
He is... He makes me feel the worst kind of feelings. I hate it. I hate it. I want to be able to be me without feeling pathetic for it.
I have more important things to focus on than a person who will never accept me, but because he looks, smells, and sounds so much like the person I love most it's too hard to just ignore.
Is that what you needed?
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Thanks, T-san. I'll see you again in a few days.